Now i have to HATE you, not because i want this by myself or i will be happy by this, but because of your addiction.. your memories are making me sick , it makes me to suffer a lot.
Every time when it happens that something belong to you come into my mind ,then every memory belongs to you appear as a snapshot.. very soon it became a struggle for me to control my beats and my thoughts. To get rid from these suffering i need to forget you, though i cant , but i need to hate you, so that the memories of you dont make me to suffer..I know i am wrong, i should not think like this, i should enjoy this pain of nostalgia, should not turn as an escapist but dont have any other option because i am weak in this game.
You and I cannot live together. not because of you and not because of me, but because both you and I are beyond life, we have grown out of it, we can only meet. I know one day i have to leave you. But the memories of you will always bring a smile on my face & that memories is bonding me to you. I will never get free from you in this way. but i even know that day is coming very soon i have to leave you. if i start hating you then it became quit easy for me to get revealed, but the emptiness so left will be also kill me. a solitude will remain that again makes me restless. i have nothing to win, i am playing a game where on both side only i have to lose , suffer. all i can have is to get defeat from you & also from your memories. perhaps this is my destiny. burning in memories of someone both painful as well as pleasureful.
Every time when it happens that something belong to you come into my mind ,then every memory belongs to you appear as a snapshot.. very soon it became a struggle for me to control my beats and my thoughts. To get rid from these suffering i need to forget you, though i cant , but i need to hate you, so that the memories of you dont make me to suffer..I know i am wrong, i should not think like this, i should enjoy this pain of nostalgia, should not turn as an escapist but dont have any other option because i am weak in this game.
You and I cannot live together. not because of you and not because of me, but because both you and I are beyond life, we have grown out of it, we can only meet. I know one day i have to leave you. But the memories of you will always bring a smile on my face & that memories is bonding me to you. I will never get free from you in this way. but i even know that day is coming very soon i have to leave you. if i start hating you then it became quit easy for me to get revealed, but the emptiness so left will be also kill me. a solitude will remain that again makes me restless. i have nothing to win, i am playing a game where on both side only i have to lose , suffer. all i can have is to get defeat from you & also from your memories. perhaps this is my destiny. burning in memories of someone both painful as well as pleasureful.
