Thursday 14 March 2013

Why I write

           Although  i am avoiding this question since a long, or just avoiding to write on this here that,
       "Why i write".

   A very simple answer of it is ,"It heals", yeah , it is a therapeutic , it is cathartic process for me, it  is the one which makes me free from sorrow for a while, console me when no one to share prob., preferably a shoulder to cry.
     Though i never write a routine  diary ,but what i feels only, thoughts, 
 only when i get disturbed, feeling melancholy, dejected , when anything happen which hurt me really or a crush. But Sometimes even-after feeling blue i don't write as i feel tired to write, at that time only i shed tears (only when i really get tired) lil-bit one or two droplets but sufficient to get relaxed. deep breath n little cry is the best solution.
      "I sit in the dark , and it would be hard to figure out
            which is worse,
       The dark inside or the darkness outside"
[Joseph Brodsky]

    I believe there shouldn't any reason to like things, passion, should be free from any logic, argument, just love love.We shouldn't have any reason to like someone, it just happens , occur to make us dream for hours, to live , exist.
    I can vividly remember days or night when i had specific person to write about, to dream . At that time all my writing belonged to them only,  whatever i start but end up on writing about them only. But now days are gone , she have gone ,but i am here lone. well  sometimes i felt i really like to write about her only, i found peace, hope , joy. For almost two years i wrote belong to them only, as like Italian poet Dante, who dreamed of  Beatrice, 
and wrote for years even when she died long go . I was in illusion of platonic love, that was in search of  "Anna Femore' (i remember as the Greek word for divine love). some day if i gather energy to write on this i would surely, but not now.
           read somewhere 
    "Alcohol is to writer, what heart break is to the poet".

   Things have drastically changed now, no inspiration to write now, not such harsh feelings which makes me to do so, but because of some special persons writing blog (rarely, since procrastination nature), no matter how rubbish it is, but still they read. thank to them.