The day he said i hate LOVE , he leave HER.
He got relief from pain of years, from tons of weight .. but then he found another restlessness, in one corner of heart he was burning..
he was tired of thinking whether he love her or just like . he was confused, he was in dilemma . he try to not to think about her, he was convincing himself that he just like her, he was telling lie to himself..and he also know this it is not true. spent night sleeplessly, and while half asleep he compose all these. when he felt he wont get her love , he was refusing to admit that he love her. "Escaipsm"
he was loosing hope thus , although he couldn't accept this. he found yet he love her, but just avoiding to think this. Then a few days later she found her in his dream. she appeared in her dream , again restlessness again dreaming for her. For him dreaming about her, to think about her is like an addiction, he can spent hole day to think her.
and he found that he is revolving around a circle , the circle of thoughts about her..he was content to know this that he love her, for him it was became very necessary to know if he rally love her or not. he got his answer. and he know he wont got more then this (love). he know he wont have her, because he was afraid of of his dreams. he was dyeing in his thoughts, he was playing a game where both side only he have to defeat. and he was happy in this because he was habitual to deny happiness. he was habitual to live like this.
he was none other then ME...
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